I'll probably always think that 17yearolds are really old. I think because I can very distinctly remember what it was like when they really were old.

I always forget that I'm actually 18.

I could write and write and write forever. Really. That's all I've been doing since late last night and all throughout today. Writing in my paper journal, in my LJ, working on my research paper. Write, write, write. I love writing. "To write is to think twice." I don't care that I'm horrible at it or that no one will read the things that I write, I love doing it. It makes me feel alive, it awakens something within me. It is so incredibly freeing.

I want to write on how much I love my life and the people in it. I feel that it's an important thing for you to know and for me to be aware of. It's really a defining thing about me, how much I truly do appropriate people. HOLY SHIT DO I LOVE PEOPLE. People are the coolest, don't you know.



I want to reread the Harry Potter books. I'm almost constantly thinking about how badly I want to reread the Harry Potter books. Those and the Black Jewels Trilogy. That's my mission while I'm in Florida, rereading the entire Black Jewels Trilogy. I had a dream last night that I did it pretty damn fast. I was uber proud of myself. Then I woke up and realized I had to write this paper.

V.S. Naipaul was a pretty bright guy. I really do like a lot of his ideas;
"The trouble with our principles is that they are a part of our self-esteem. We dare not deny them. To preserve them we will deny what we see."

I like it. I definitely see many elements of truth to it. I'm really kind of jumpy right now. And I think maybe a little hungry. I should go eat. Wow I am easily distracted. Love me anyway?

I miss high school.
I miss the way everything glowed.
I miss the lessons that I learned,
I want to learn them again.


I miss blissfully loving you.